Infertility is Bad. Busy is Good.

We had a good Thanksgiving.

We stayed very busy.

We ate lots.

I went shopping on Black Friday.

We ate some more.



As the Holiday came and went I kept myself very busy. I cooked a Thanksgiving meal. I spent time with family. I went shopping. I got a Starbucks. I did laundry. I cleaned. I got all our Christmas decor out (except our tree).

Then all of a sudden I was not busy. I was emotional. I was sad. I knew it was coming sooner or later. I had been doing so great. As we go through infertility, it is always on my mind. It just depends on how I handle it. When I am busy, I push it to the back corner of my emotions. And I love that feeling. I love not having it control me. I love that it seems ok. But it always rears its ugly head, and I end up having it control my emotions. I've been working on trying to regain my emotions quicker than I normally could. By that I mean, I have my half hour or hour of sadness, tears, and hopelessness. Then I need to snap out of it and think of positive things. I cannot let it go on and on. That is when it really starts controlling you. It does not mean that my chest stops hurting from a broken heart, or that my tears will go away forever. It just means that I can control this ugly thing called infertility. I am far from where I want to be, but I am on my way there.

One of the best things about this Holiday season for me has been that I am busy!! Which for me means less time for me to focus on infertility!! I'm wondering, if you are going through infertility, what helps to ease your mind from it?

I am more in the Holiday spirit this year than I have been in a while. I am so excited for the month of December. I am thankful that the Lord gives me joy through the Holidays. Really why would I have cause to complain? I have many more blessings than I deserve.