Clomid Day 5

Today is Clomid day 5, and I am so excited that I am almost done taking my Clomid. Only 2 more days left.

The "evil" side affects are still lingering with me, but I have been doing better with controlling them. I have just started to get really emotional, like I could cry at the drop of a hat. Another side affect that has been happening since Clomid day 3 is dizziness. I take my pills mid morning, then it seems by 5pm or so everything starts to spin in my head. It is so weird. It's not like I have a hard time walking, it's like it's all in my head. Really strange. I have not once, felt sick to my stomach, nauseous, or had a headache (praise God)!

Right now I feel like the time is just dragging by. I am anxious for my appointment on CD 15, and to find out if the Clomid has worked so I can ovulate. That will be found out towards the end of next week.

I have been so excited ever since my cycle started. It's like I am already telling myself that I will have a positive result. I need to stop that right now. I want to think positive but, at the same time so many times before I have been let down. I just don't want to make it harder for myself if it is not a positive result this Cycle. I have been stocking up on my baby clothes from garage sales, etc. I want to get them all out and prepare them for our little blessing.

I would LOVE to hear from ANYONE who has ever been on Clomid, and how many MG. I am doing 200MG this cycle. I would love to hear if you had any side affects, how many cycles that you've taken Clomid, and IF IT WORKED!!

Today I feel so blessed to have lots of baby boy and baby girl clothes that are ready whenever our little blessing arrives.

Marriage and Infertility

My hubby and I have been married for almost 5 years. Never once did I think that we would have trouble trying to conceive. We really had it all planned out.

Get Married, Enjoy Life, Have a Baby...well let's rewind to Enjoy life, because that's were our plans stopped. We have not made it to the Have a Baby part. We have been trying for 3 1/2 years though, with no success. So how do you keep you marriage strong and healthy with such a big battle trying to overcome your life!? I ask myself that questions all the time, and I pray about that all the time. I need help from the Lord on that issue, I cannot handle our marriage and infertility on my own.

The first step for me was to realize that I need help, I need the Lord to give us both the help that we need. For years I was so focused on our infertility and how badly I wanted a baby, how badly I wanted to be a mother. I would see everyone else becoming a mother, and I would see so many little babies everywhere. It hurt me to the core each and every time. It was at the point where I was not being the wife that my hubby needed. It was all about me, all the time. I really did not see that until last year. So for 2 years that was our life. I get so emotional every time I think about it, because I hate what I have put my hubby through. He was so kind and caring, but I pushed him way too far for way too long.

We have since started to mend our hearts from all the heartache. The Lord has helped me in so many ways. All I did was pray. I saw things change right in front of my eyes, within days. I was so broken. I was so happy that I saw hope for happiness again. Not just daily grief over what I do not have, and there are constant reminders of that everywhere it just depends on how you look at them. I am so far from where I want to be, and I will never be perfect. I will always need the Lord's help.

When I am feeling so low and so sad. I try to remember other who are praying just to be healthy, or others who are praying just to have a chance at a pregnancy as well. I do not know if we will ever have a child of our own, but I hope and pray that the Lord will bless us in His time and in His way. As hard as infertility is, having the Lord on my side makes it so much easier.

Really, once we got our happiness back I felt like I have conquered the biggest battle of all.

I would love to hear about any of your Marriage and Infertility lessons.

Today I feel so blessed to have my Lord helping me through this journey of infertility.

Praying our way through Infertility

I am participating in Kelly's show us your life. This week it is about your ministry.

My husband and I have been trying to have our own little miracle for over 3 years now. We have hope that the Lord will bless us with a child. I started my blog almost 1 year ago, I needed to get out a lot of emotions that come with infertility. I also had been reading a lot of women's infertility blogs before I started a blog of my own, and it was a great encouragement for me to realize that I am not the only woman who is going through this journey. So many emotions come with infertility, and it is only normal, but not every one can relate to those emotions unless you have experienced infertility.

I have just recently realized that I cannot handle this on my own, I always tried to control our infertility my way. I was very wrong. I need the Lord's help. Prayer is my lifeline through our journey. I would love to lift you up in prayer as well!! If you are going through infertility as well, my advice to you would be, "Always know that the Lord is listening to your prayers, and always let Him carry your burdens." My burden of infertility was weighing me down to a point where it was affecting every aspect of my life in ways that I am not proud of, but the Lord has been right by my side helping me find myself again. I know that He can do the same for you!!!

Please let me know if you are struggling. It may be from infertility, or it may not. I would love to add you to my prayer list!

I feel blessed to have a direct line to our Lord. It is through Prayer.

Major Negative in Wendy's

Well....

I'm not pregnant. Big surprise right. I'll tell you the whole story!

I had a Chiropractor appointment scheduled for yesterday, and I knew that they will need to do X-Rays. I also knew that you should not be pregnant for an X-Ray. I had not taken a test in about 2 months, my cycle has been strange as always, so I had no idea if I was or not. I thought, Hey, there is a possibility. I went to Wal-Mart and got a test, then I thought OH No where am I going to take this test. I was starving, and Wendy's is my favorite fast food place. I decided to take the test in the restroom. It was far from the best place to take a test, but I was out of options and luckily no one else was in the restroom. It was negative pretty quickly. I was not surprised at all.

So I washed my hands of course! :) Got a Double Stack no onion, small fry and bottled water, went out to my car and had my lunch. I just kept thinking to myself this will NEVER happen. After so many negatives, it becomes second nature. I think we might as well start the Adoption process, but I know that we are not quite ready for that. I just need to have a little more faith, even through the very difficult days.

Today I feel Blessed for everything the Lord has Blessed us with.