Ovulation?!

If you have been reading my blog for a while you will know that I have problems ovulating. I have not been to any doctor or OBGYN since they could no longer help us at our local women's health center. So I have absolutely no idea if I am ovulating now, or if my progesterone levels have gone up consistently. I am pretty sure that they have gone up since I've been using the Progesterone Cream (which I started to use after we were done at our Clinic) but is it enough to ovulate? I was wondering if any of you have ever tried using an Ovulation Predictor Kit? I have wanted to try one for a few months now, so I thought I would get advice from the best support group ever. You ladies!! Are they accurate? Any certain brand you would recommend?

I would also love to hear from anyone who is struggling with ovulation problems, and what you are doing about it. Feel free to e-mail me @ loriweaver86@yahoo.com if you do not feel comfortable leaving a comment. I would love to hear from you, and I would love your help with this.

I'm not sure if it's the Holiday's coming up or my Hubby's busy schedule sneaking up on me, but I have been having a hard time with our infertility. I wish it would get easier, not more difficult. With each month that passes I feel like I am sinking further into this pit of darkness, despair, and heartache. It seems I always think about our infertility the most at night, when I am lying in bed not being able to sleep. Some nights are horrible, I feel so useless, and out of control. I know that I have to let God carry my burden's but that doesn't automatically make me stop thinking or caring about this. It helps a lot when I keep myself busy with things I like to do, and also it helps to read all my friends blogs!! It seems that I can go a few days or a given amount of time doing great, loving life, trying to embrace every moment of my NOW. Then the next minute I am like a crazy woman! My poor, poor hubby. All it can take for this to happen is to see a mommy not even care about her screaming infant, or a child getting yelled at with no reason for it all, etc. Then I feel even worse because all the effort it took for me to have my good days was just crushed and meaningless it seems. Guess what happens then? It starts all over again.

Today I pray for an obedient heart, and a calm spirit. I pray that I will be a good mommy when my time comes. I pray for peace to all my blogger ladies going through this journey as well.

I have many blessing in my life, I need to do better at recognizing them.