Provera, Clomid and lots of Prayer!!

My Doctor called!!!

It was Thursday night, we were on the porch grilling out. The whole day I had been checking the phone anxiously awaiting a phone call from the Doctor. My wonderful hubby was in the house, and all of a sudden he brings my ringing phone out to me and it was the clinic's number!! We were both so excited. I was so happy that my hubby was in the house when my phone rang. I cannot believe I didn't have it right by me, but it worked out perfectly.

Here is the wrap up of my conversation with my Doctor:

He said my test results all came back great, and by great he means it's OK for me to start a cycle of Clomid!! My progesterone levels were only at 0.5, he said I was not ovulating at all with those levels. I knew that was so, in the back if my mind I just knew I was not ovulating. So that was not a shock to me. I try my best to face reality throughout our IF journey. It is so easy to get your hopes us every month to make you think that you are pregnant.

Here is what we will be doing next:

I am now starting to take Provera to get my cycle started, after I took a pregnancy test. It is very important to take a pregnancy test prior to starting Provera, mine came out negative so I started my Provera last night! Once my cycle starts I will be starting Clomid! I will be starting off our first month at 200MG of Clomid, exactly a year ago I was on my 2nd month of Clomid at 100MG. The highest I ever went was 150MG, which was May of 2009, and I had a slight rise in my progesterone with the 150MG. So I am REALLY curious what the 200MG will do for me!!! This would be my 4th round of Clomid in my lifetime.

You might be wondering why I am not doing an HSG. I talked to my Dr. about that when he called on Thursday. I was so glad that I did. He would recommend that we try the first month of 200MG of Clomid, and see how I react to that. If I get a good reaction to it, like my progesterone levels raising, then most likely my tubes are open and good. He said 90% of the time the HSG reveals good, open fallopian tubes. I was so happy that I asked him, and that he was honest with me about it. He is very direct and to the point, which I love!!

I will need to schedule blood work around CD 17-18 to check my progesterone levels to see if I ovulated!! I hope and pray that I will ovulate. It is so crazy to think that we are doing Clomid again, I am really excited to get started. I feel at peace about this. Which is the best feeling in the world.

Right now I only want to think about this month, this round of Clomid, not our future. I want to focus on today, and not wish my tomorrows away. I want to live in the moment, and be happy in the moment!! Too many times I have ruined today because of worry. God can take all my worries so that I do not have to deal with them, they weigh me down so much. So today my blessing is that God lifts my burdens from me, and takes my worries away. Too me that is a huge blessing!!

Has God lifted any of your burdens, or taken any of your worries away? I would love to hear about how God has helped you today!!

Our Infertility Consultation Recap

I am happy to report that our consultation went very well yesterday. I was so nervous, and I think I was just so excited that we are actually, finally seeing a specialist! Its been 3 and a half years, and it felt so good to see a Doctor that is very confident, very professional, very caring and very smart. I was so thrilled with our Doctor.

First of all we met with our Doctor in his office, not an exam room! I was lovin' that. It felt so nice to just talk to him and not feel stressed with being in an exam room. We were just sitting back and sharing as much information with him as we could. He was able to put together more pieces to our IF puzzle, so that he could treat us better!

I asked him if he would say I have PCOS. He said PCOS has such a broad range of symptoms that a lot of people fall into the PCOS category, so he said he would call my problem"traumatic anovulation." Basically I do not ovulate, not even with the couple of rounds of Clomid that I took a year ago. So he wants to do some blood work to see if there is something in the way of the Clomid not working. After I get the results from the blood work, we will need to have made our decision if we want to start Clomid this cycle. I have a very irregular cycle, so I will need to take Provera to start my cycle ASAP. He said he doesn't like to have a woman go longer than 2 months without a cycle, because the uterine lining will build up too much. I am right around the 2 month mark, so it could work our perfectly. I am going in tomorrow for my blood work, with the results coming next week. If everything comes back "good" we will probably take Provera to start my cycle, then take Clomid! He wants to give me stronger doses of Clomid, the strongest I took last time was 150mg, he wants to try 200-250mg.

Then...

If Clomid would not work for us, we would look into Fertility shots. Which will be more expensive and more invasive, also there is a bigger chance of multiples with the shots. I was so impressed with how the Dr. was stressing that they do not take that lightly. They want to try every other option before they will try the shots on us, due to the risk of multiples. If we get to this point, we will need to think and pray about when we would want to start the shots. I am sure we would wait a while after the Clomid to start the shots. The Dr. also wants me to get an HSG done. I would like to get that done even before we start the Clomid. I would love to hear from anyone who has had an HSG done. Did you do it before Clomid, or did you wait until before a more invasive form of treatment?

After we went over all of that. He asked us if hubby had ever been checked, and he never was. So we were able to get that done right away, and the Dr. called tonight with the results!! I was so shocked that he called already, he told me that he will call on Friday. So I was super excited when hubby picked up that call!! I think that my hubby was surprised as well, after the Dr. told hubby the results hubby told the Dr. that I would like to talk to him. I thought that was so sweet of my hubby to do that, he knows how important this all is to me. So I took the phone, nervous with anticipation, the Dr. said the results were back and hubby is 100% perfect!! I was thrilled!! I always felt that he was, but was never sure, so now we are sure!! The Dr. was so nice, he asked me if I had done my blood work yet, and I told him tomorrow that will be done, he said that's great!! I was so thrilled that he asked about that, I really felt that he cared and wanted to get this process going. I was so excited about how quickly he gets things done, yet at the same time he told us not to feel pressured into anything they suggest. They just want to give us all of our options, and then they let us go from there, with no pressure!!

Also, at the appointment he did an ultrasound on me to check my cysts on my ovaries (again, I was so surprised how quickly he got things done). My right ovary has more cysts than my left. He was glad to see the cysts, because that reaffirmed him that I was not ovulating. He said that cysts are caused by anovulation, each month you do not ovulate, those eggs form cysts on your ovary. Then once you start to ovulate the cysts will disappear. I was so impressed with how much I learned from him in such a little amount of time.

So...

My main problem is that I do not ovulate.

Hubby checked out perfectly

Cannot wait to find out the results from my bloodworm

Our next step will be Clomid!!

I would really appreciate your prayers. Prayers specifically for a clear mind to make the right decisions, and for good blood work levels, and of course for the Clomid to work!!

I feel so blessed to have found a Doctor that we both liked and felt really comfortable with.

Appointment Rescheduled

Yesterday I was supposed to travel to Indiana for my follow up appointment with the Doctor I had seen in January, you can read about that here. I cancelled the appointment because of bad weather, the roads were still pretty bad and we would have had to leave at 4am. So we rescheduled for March 4th. I did have a chance to talk to the Doctor, I told him that I was still have my 15 day cycles. He told me that maybe my uterus muscles were not as strong as he thought, which meant if that is true my uterus could have shifted back to the old position. I did tell him about the small changes I have seen in my cycle, and then I asked him if it is even possible to get pregnant with a 15 day cycle. He told me most definitely. It should happen towards the middle of the cycle, and that all depends on if I am ovulating.

Today I was texting a friend who is also going through infertility, and she said that someone told her that if you start progesterone cream on CD 5 it makes so you don't ovulate. I have been starting my progesterone cream on CD 5!! I was told by the company to start it on CD 5. So I am not taking any chances, I am quiting my progesterone cream completely. I am almost at the end of my cycle, again. HA! 2 weeks goes by way too fast. So hopefully my body can regulate on it's own. I guess we will see soon enough. If I see changes for the worse, I will probably start taking it again, but not until I would call the company and explain the situation. Plus I am ready for a break from the cream, I just want to see what my body can do!!

My ticker reads 1 month 3weeks 5 days until our infertility consultation! I remember when I applied that ticker, and it was at 6 months! Time does fly by, even when it feels like its dragging!

Right now I am thinking:

"What will be happening in 1month 3weeks and 5days?"

Will I be pregnant?

Will I still not be pregnant?

Will I have regular cycles?

Will I be at peace?

Will some of my friends who are struggling as well, be pregnant?

Will we be told that I am still not ovulating?

Will I be told that we need lots of help?

Will I be told we will be pregnant in no time at all? If so, will I believe them?

Could this be the year that we finally receive our blessing?

Progesterone Results Tomorrow

Wow, I am so scared!! Tomorrow I will call my doctors office to get my results from my progesterone levels for our LAST month on Clomid. I never want to call. It's better for me to have that hope than to call and find out the worst results ever. I am trying so hard to have faith and be strong, but as those of you who are going through infertility know that is very hard to do when all you have ever heard is low levels or negatives.

Positive?

What really does that word mean?

To me it means JOY, LOVE, THANKFULNESS, NEW LIFE, FINALLY, MIRACLE.

What does the word "positive" mean to you?

Clomid Round 2

We are starting our second round of Clomid!! I am nervous, excited, and scared all at the same time. This is when my Faith in the LORD really needs to kick in, I need to sit back and just let it happen even if I'm scared. It's just the "not knowing if it will work"part that really scares me. There is no use in me getting all worked up about this, when I have no control over this situation.

I was so lucky the first round with Clomid, because I had absolutely no side effects! Crazy, Right! I started off at 50MG, that really had no effect on me as far as my fertility. My progesterone levels are so low and Clomid is supposed to raise those (and do lots of other stuff). But the 50MG did not raise my levels at all. My progesterone was at 0.5 before the Clomid, and 0.5 after the Clomid which is very low. It was not even at 1. So my Doctor bumped it up to 100MG! YEAH! So I might get a big surprise once I start taking it, higher doses' equals me more likely to have side effects. Yikes! We'll see. I'll keep you updated on how I'm doing with it.

I would really love to hear about anyone's experience with Clomid, or tips while taking it (if there are any).

I feel so blessed tonight to be able to be at home with my hubby and we have lots of our favorite shows to catch up on!