National Infertility Awareness Week

I have been reading so many posts on infertility this week, it is so amazing what an encouragement and most of all what a comfort it is to have all of you, who know exactly how infertility feels, to make this horrible journey a little bit easier. So thank you for all your support you have given me since I have been blogging. Your friendship means so much!

Infertility has been life changing for me, in so many ways. We got married July 9, 2005, we both wanted kids, we were so excited to start our married life. One thing that I will regret for the rest of my life, is that I once told my Mom that we want to wait 4-5 years before we have kids. How shallow of me, how selfish of me. I struggle with that so much, I always have that in the back of my mind. Why did I say that, I had no idea that the yearning to be a mother would come so quickly. After a year of being married, I was so ready. I went off the pill in fall of 2006, and that's when everything went downhill. We have been trying ever since, and we are coming closer to our 4 year anniversary. Once I knew it would be a struggle to conceive, I knew I would not have kids before we were married for 4 years because of the comment I made. I truly believe the Lord wanted me to wake up, and know that HE is in control of my life. He is the one Who blesses us with children, He will give us children when He wants to. Infertility has been a wake up call for me, it has been the most horrible, emotional, tiring, and challenging thing that I have ever gone through, and we are not even at the end of our journey yet.

Some days are so hard for me, some days I think I cannot understand why. Why us, why after so long, when will it happen? Right now I am struggling with: What if Clomid does not work? I really do not know what I would do, I think my hope would start to falter. But I have a God who I know wants whats best for me, and I have a husband who has been my rock through all of this. So if Clomid does not work, I have to remember Who is actually making Clomid work. The Lord has control in all we do, I believe He makes things available to us as a way to overcome this horrible thing called infertility.

I believe people are not nearly aware enough about infertility, I know I wasn't before we were infertile. Through all of this I think we can reach a lot of people, and maybe people will feel more blessed than they ever have for the things they have. I know I have been counting my blessings for the things I DO have! I pray for infertile women so much, for strength, for hope, for peace and that one day we CAN overcome infertility!

Today I feel blessed to have a God who I can cast all my cares upon!

I got Tagged!!

This is my first tag since I joined the blog world. Alexis over at "Where He Leads Me, I will Follow" tagged me!

Here are the rules of the game!!

- Mention the person that tagged you.

- Complete the following lists of 8's.

- Tag 8 of your wonderful bloggy friends.

- Go tell them you tagged them!


Eight Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1.) Being a Mommy

2.) Finding out the results of this months clomid

3.) When my hubby gets home from a referree camp on Sunday! I miss him already, and he just left!

4.) My baby brothers High School Graduation Party.

5.) Spending tomorrow morning with my two Nieces! It's Sophia's birthday! So I'm taking them both out for the morning!

6.) Lots of summer nights working outside with the man I love!

7.) Vacation with the Hubby's family in June!

8.) The Birth of my sisters baby in August!! And my Sister-in-laws baby in July!


Eight Things I Did Yesterday:

1.) Spring Cleaned our Bedroom

2.) Grilled Steaks

3.) Went to the Hardware store in town

4.) Took all of our trash to the dumpster

5.) Washed up all of our laundry

6.) Blew off our driveway with our blower

7.) Went over to my parents house, my mom gives Kevin his haircuts. We had a great visit!

8.) Watched some of Kevins referree video, to critique him before his big camp! I'll have to do a post on Kevin and his referree career!


Eight Things I Wish I Could Do:

1.) Be a Mommy

2.) Wake up early all the time

3.) Buy a brand new Acura MDX

4.) Lose 15 pounds

5.) Go to Paris with my husband

6.) Comfort every hurting child in the world

7.) Keep a positive attitude all the time

8.) Have my own fashion store


Eight Shows I Watch:

1.) CSI: Miami

2.) Castle

3.) Without a Trace

4.) Criminal Minds

5.) Days of our Lives

6.) CSI: NY

7.) Jon & Kate Plus Eight

8.) Dancing with the Stars


People I Tag:

Jaclyn

Kelly

Lacy

Kendra

Jennifer

Super B's Mom

My Home-My Life

Jennifer I could not get your address to get us to your site, let me know the exact address

Delivery is Here!

So the special delivery came today! I am so excited about what we purchased.

First of all a much need spreader!

And a small trailer!
A grill, we are having steaks tonight!! We got a grill as a wedding gift, but it blew over and broke, so we have missed having a grill so bad! We went all of last year without one!

Last

But

Not

Least....

Meet out new mower, Husky! We have never owned a mower since we have been married, we always borrowed one. So we are super excited to have one of our own. Hubby will try it out tonight, and hopefully it will do a great job!

So we have a busy night planned!!

Way to go Jaclyn, you guessed right on two items!!

Have a wonderful evening!!

Special Delivery!

This afternoon we will have a special delivery! You might laugh when you see what it is, but it is greatly needed. We are so excited about it, we've been married for almost 4 years and this is the first time we will own one of these! Feel free to guess what it is, I will post pictures when it arrives.

Hint: We will be working outside once it arrives!!

Today I am spring cleaning our bedroom, I also got a new addition for our bedroom. Hubby was so sweet to install them last night while I was at work. I will post before and after pictures sometime this weekend!


Today I am thankful for beautiful warm weather arriving after rain and cold temps!! Thank You Lord!

Busy is Good!

Busy is good when you are going through infertility! I have come to that conclusion, because I started thinking that I have not been dwelling so much on not being able to have a baby! So the busier I get, the less I have a negative attitude it seems. I'm not saying I don't have my bad days! I get so scared when I think that Clomid might not work for me, because the Clinic I'm at right now said that if it does not work they can no longer help me. Then I would have to go to a larger Infertility Clinic, and that scares me so bad. Today I am trying to focus on the positive and leave these thoughts and fears behind. I cannot forget WHO holds my future, HE is in control, I need to (as my husband says) RELAX!

Has anyone tried Progesterone Cream? I would love to hear from you if you have!

Today I feel blessed to finally have a hair appointment! I missed my last one a month ago because I was very sick, so right now I look like Mrs. ROOTS!!!

Have a Great Wednesday!

Hot Flashes

Well I think I have been having my first side effects from Clomid! I have been getting hot flashes like crazy, they wake me up from my sleep. I took my last Clomid pill last week so I was wondering when you had your side effects from Clomid. I was not sure if it could be from the Clomid even if I took the last pill last week? I would love any advice!! Other than the hot flashes everything has been going great.

I can tell that summer is coming, because we have been so busy lately. It seems there are not enough hours in my day, I am not a morning person so I tend to sleep in, but I think I am going to have to get out of bed early if I want to get all the thing done on my to-do list! It makes it so much harder because I work full-time, I'm sure lots of you know what I mean. Do any of you have the same problem, any tips on how you get your stuff done plus stay caught up on all the things you like (like, blogs, DVR, walking, etc)? Any tips would be very helpful!!!

Today I feel blessed to have a my morning off so I can catch up on vacation laundry along with lots of other stuff!!!!

Wonderful Getaway!!

We had a wonderful trip to Washington DC! We had perfect weather, and gorgeous flowers to look at. We walked a LOT, but it was all worth it to see all the things we saw!! I've posted lots of pictures from our trip, so I hope you all enjoy!

We started the trip off with a picnic lunch!

This was on our walk from our hotel to the city

The White House! Absolutely Gorgeous. We were able to see Michelle Obama playing with there new dog in the yard! Very Cool!

Of Course, we had to stop at my favorite store on the planet!!!!

Getting ready to go into ESPN Zone to watch our Cavaliers play there first game in the playoffs.(which they won)

We had a great time at ESPN Zone, can you tell hubby was very happy about this!

Lincoln Memorial

I fell so very blessed to have had a safe, beautiful and fun weekend getaway!!