Hopefully No More Clomid...Ever

I finished my last Clomid on Friday. I am hoping that I will never need to take Clomid again. I am hoping and praying for a positive result so much. I don't even want to think about if its negative. We will find out in about 2 weeks. That feels like forever from now! I will need to work on my patience. I know that Clomid majorly makes your hormones go crazy!! I was so glad when I was done taking the Clomid, because I felt like myself again almost immediately!

I was thinking about all of my friend who are going through IF. Especially yesterday. I just really try to focus on my Mother and my Mother-in-law on Mother's Day. It has been 3 Mother's Day's since we are going through IF, and I hope that this was the last one without our little Blessing. I try not to focus on me not being a Mother. I am fine until I hear a song about "little ones", then I get very emotional and mostly sad.

Yesterday my sis-n-law on hubby's side let me go through 2 totes of her baby boy clothes. I was in heaven. It was so fun to go through the clothes and pick out the ones that our little blessing will wear someday!! Now I want to wash everything up, then organize them by size. So that whenever I really do need them, they will be ready to go!! I hope and pray that I can get them out soon!!

This was a really random post!! A little bit of everything! I hope that you all are having a wonderful start to your week!

Today I feel blessed that I feel like myself again!!

Painting Project

I had mentioned my small painting project just recently. So I wanted to share it with you.

I have had this small project on my to-do list for 3 years (ever since we moved in). So you can imagine how happy I am that it is done.

I painted the entrance to our upstairs. The people who lived here before had wallpaper everywhere!! I am working on a post to show you the before and afters of our home. We love our house so much. I think it's because we have done so much to it, we have painted a lot!!

Before

After

I painted the hallway the same color as our kitchen/dinning room. I love how it turned out. It feels so much more cozy!! You know how much I love a cozy home!!

Today I feel so blessed to have finally got this done!!

It's Was A Girls Night Out!

On Monday night all of us girls went to a Mother-Daughter Banquet at my Granny-n-laws church. We usually go every year, and I always look forward to it. We have so much fun together with just us girls!! The guys always get us riled up, so it was nice to have girl time.

My hubby is one of four boys, and now all the boys are either getting married, married or dating. So there were the 4 girls (daughter-in-laws), hubby's mom, hubby's Granny, a family friend, and the newest addition to the family.

Left-Right: Hubby's Granny, Hubby's youngest brother's Girlfriend, Hubby's mom, Family friend, Hubby's younger brother's Fiance (getting married in June), Myself,

In the Front: Hubby's oldest brother's wife and our new little niece.

We rarely get a picture with just all of us girls, so this picture will be treasured!

Today I feel so blessed to have such wonderful women in my life!!

Clomid Day 5

Today is Clomid day 5, and I am so excited that I am almost done taking my Clomid. Only 2 more days left.

The "evil" side affects are still lingering with me, but I have been doing better with controlling them. I have just started to get really emotional, like I could cry at the drop of a hat. Another side affect that has been happening since Clomid day 3 is dizziness. I take my pills mid morning, then it seems by 5pm or so everything starts to spin in my head. It is so weird. It's not like I have a hard time walking, it's like it's all in my head. Really strange. I have not once, felt sick to my stomach, nauseous, or had a headache (praise God)!

Right now I feel like the time is just dragging by. I am anxious for my appointment on CD 15, and to find out if the Clomid has worked so I can ovulate. That will be found out towards the end of next week.

I have been so excited ever since my cycle started. It's like I am already telling myself that I will have a positive result. I need to stop that right now. I want to think positive but, at the same time so many times before I have been let down. I just don't want to make it harder for myself if it is not a positive result this Cycle. I have been stocking up on my baby clothes from garage sales, etc. I want to get them all out and prepare them for our little blessing.

I would LOVE to hear from ANYONE who has ever been on Clomid, and how many MG. I am doing 200MG this cycle. I would love to hear if you had any side affects, how many cycles that you've taken Clomid, and IF IT WORKED!!

Today I feel so blessed to have lots of baby boy and baby girl clothes that are ready whenever our little blessing arrives.

Clomid Day 3

Today is Day 3 for my Clomid...and I have seen the evil Clomid brought to life, in me.

Last night I had a little bit of a meltdown. By meltdown I mean, a major attitude. Everything just felt annoying, and I was not capable of being rational and thinking things through. I had no desire to be nice or kind. This happened close to bedtime, and I always have a hard time at bedtime anyway. I think it's when I am not really tired, then I think about all the possibilities. Like "What if this cycle will not work?" "Why did I have to go through all this in the first place?" I tend to think about all things bad. Then mix in 200MG of Clomid, well...it's not good.

I have 4 more days to go, I pray that it will not get worse. But I am preparing myself for it to get worse.

I thought I had this Clomid under control, but it came out like a Lioness!! Of course I felt great this morning, no worries, no anxiety. But come tonight...I fear the dreaded hours of the late night!!

I scheduled my appointment for my ultrasound and blood work on CD 15. I will need to be there at 7am, and I need to have 32oz of water drank by 6am!!! I have no idea how I will get that much water down, that early! I get to go to a Clinic that is a lot closer than my Dr.'s office, so that is great. My Dr. wanted me to get this stuff done early so that they can get the results quicker.

Today I feel blessed that I don't feel sick on the Clomid!!

Clomid Day 2

Today was the second day of my Clomid. I took it this morning again. I was talking to my hubby on the phone right when I was ready to take the pills, so we said a quick prayer together. It was so special.

So far today I am feeling great. No side affects. Here are some of the most common side affects of Clomid (Clomiphene Citrate).

Stomach upset, bloating, abdominal/pelvic fullness, flushing (hot flashes), breast tenderness, headache or dizziness.

I have not had one of those side affects! I feel really good. I remember last year when I was on lower doses of Clomid, I had major hot flashes. So now I have 2 days down, and 5 more to go. I am taking 4 pills each morning which are 50Mg each. We are praying that the 200MG is what we have needed all along!!!

Much Needed Update

I have had a busy week!! Here are some of the things that kept me busy this past week!

Getting ready for a Garage Sale

A painting project

I was hosted a Pampered Bride party, for my brother-in-law and his soon to be wife, on Thursday night! So I was running around like a maniac all week to prepare for that plus all of my other daily tasks!!

As the busyness of last week is past I find myself wondering how CD 3 came so fast, oh and how the 200MG of Clomid have given me NO side affects as of now!! Yes...you did hear that right!! This morning I took my first dose of 200MG of Clomid, only 6 more to go! I decided to take them in the morning instead of the evening. I though I might as well try it since last time the evening regimen did not work (not saying that is the reason that the Clomid didn't work last year)! So I took those 4 little pills this morning, and my wonderful hubby said a prayer before I took them. I just want to have God control this cycle, I want Him to have all the credit if I do get pregnant, and If I don't then I still want to praise Him. The thing is I know that God is with me, He haas given me so much comfort and peace through the last few weeks. So that, to me, is proof that He is with me every step of the way!

I wanted to update you on how I felt after I was done taking the Provera. It took about a day or 2 after my last pill, before I got some of my energy back as well as my spirit of Love!! Then by Thursday of last week I felt 100%...no 200%!! I have not felt that good for a long time. I felt like the old me, before I had to deal with all of these hormone problems. So as much pain that the Provera brought along with it, it sure did it's job!

I spoke with my nurse and they would like me to go get an ultrasound done and some blood work on CD15 to see how everything is looking. My Dr. thinks that when/if my body ovulates, it might be a little later in the cycle than the normal CD14 ovulation. So for now I want to enjoy life!! I feel great, I hope I will keep feeling great, and I love Spring!!!

Today I feel so blessed to have a God who cares so much about me. I feel very blessed to be happy and joyful today.